Wesley Corpus

Journal Vol4 7

AuthorJohn Wesley
Typejournal
YearNone
Passage IDjw-journal-vol4-7-050
Words387
Free Will Trinity Prevenient Grace
quite confused, andmy strength entirely gone. Yet I breathed freely, and had not the least thirst, nor any pain, from head to foot. I was now at a full stand, whether to aim at Lisburn, or to push forward for Dublin. But my friends doubting whether I could bear so long a journey, I went straight to Derry-Aghy; a gentleman's seat, on the side of a hill, three miles beyond Lisburn. Here nature sunk, and I tookmy bed. But I could July, 1775.] no more turn myself therein, than a new-born child. My memory failed, as well as my strength, andwell nigh my under- standing. Only those words ran in my mind, when I saw Miss Gayer on one side of the bed, looking at her mother on the other:- She sat, like Patience on a monument, Smiling at grief. But still I had no thirst, no difficulty of breathing, no pain, from head to foot. I cangive no account ofwhat followed for two or three days, beingmore dead than alive. Only I remember it was difficult for me to speak, my throat being exceeding dry. But Joseph Bradford tells me I said on Wednesday, " It will be determined before this time to-morrow ; " that my tongue was much swollen, and as black as a coal ; that I was convulsed all over ; and that for some time my heart did not beat perceptibly, neither was any pulse discernible. In the night of Thursday, 22, Joseph Bradford came to me with a cup, and said, " Sir, you must take this." I thought, " I will, if I can swallow, to please him; for it will do me neither harm nor good." Immediately it set me a vomiting ; myheart began to beat and my pulse to play again ; and from that hour the extremity ofthe symptoms abated. The nextday I sat up several hours, and walked four or five times across the room. On Saturday I sat up all day, and walked across the room many times, without any weariness ; on Sunday, I came down stairs, and sat several hours in the parlour ; on Monday, I walked out before the house ; on Tuesday, I took an airing in the chaise, and on Wednesday, trusting in God, to the aston-