Journal Vol4 7
| Author | John Wesley |
|---|---|
| Type | journal |
| Year | None |
| Passage ID | jw-journal-vol4-7-033 |
| Words | 392 |
" 8. For some time her disorder seemed at a stand, growing.
neither better nor worse ; but in spring, after she had taken a
quantity of the bark, she was abundantly worse. Her cough
continually increased, and her strength swiftly decayed ; so that
before Easter, she was obliged to take to her bed : And having
now a near prospect of death, she mightily rejoiced in the
thought, earnestly longing for the welcome moment ; only still
with that reserve, ' Not as I will, but as thou wilt.'
" 9. Mr. Harper (the Preacher) took several opportunities of
asking hermany questions. She answered them all with readi-
ness and plainness, to his entire satisfaction. She told him
abundance of temptations which she underwent from time to
time; but still witnessed, that the blood of Christ had cleansed
her from all sin. She often said to us,
The race we all are running now !
And if I first attain,
Ye too your willing heads shall bow ;
Ye shall the conquest gain !
" 10. Commonly, when I came into her room, I was not able
to speak for a time. She would then say, ' Why do not you
speak ? Why do not you encourage me ? I shall love you better
when we meet in heaven, for the help you give me now.'
" 11. In the last week or two, she was not able to speak
manywords at a time ; but as she could, with her feeble, dying
voice, she exhorted us to go forward. Yet one day, some of
her former companions coming in, her spirit seemed to revive ;
and she spoke to them, to our great surprise, for near an hour
together. They seemed deeply affected ; and it was some time
before the impression wore off.
•Elizabeth Padbury.
34 REV. J. WESLEY'S [Nov. 1774.
" 12. Her father now frequently came, sat by her bedside,
and expressed tender affection; weeping much, and saying he
should now be quite alone, and have no one left to whom he
could speak. She spoke to him without reserve. He received
every word, and has never forgotten it since.
" 13. A few days before she died, afterwe had been praying
with her, we observed she was in tears, and asked her the reason.