Wesley Corpus

I would fain have spoke to him, but I could not; when I tried, my heart sunk within me. Meantime it affected me more and more, so that I lost both my stomach, my colour, and my strength. This continued ten weeks, while I pined away, not daring to tell any one. At last, he came four or five nights without any music, and looked exceeding sad. On the fifth night he drew the curtains of the bed violently to and fro, still looking wishfully at me, and as one quite distressed. This he did two nights. On the third, I lay down, about eleven, on the side of the bed. I quickly saw him walking up and down the room. Being resolved to speak to him, but unwilling any should hear, I rose and went up into the garret. When I opened the door, I saw him walking toward me, and shrunk back; on which he stopped, and stood at a distance. I said, “In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, what is your business with me?” He answered, ‘Betsy, God forgive you for keeping me so long from my rest.* Have you forgot what you promised before I went to sea,--to look to my children, if I was drowned? You must stand to your word, or I cannot rest: I said, ‘I wish I was dead.” He said, “Say not so; you have more to go through before then : And et, if you knew as much as I do, you would not care how soon you died. You may bring the children on in their learning, while they live; they have but a short time.’t I said, ‘I will take all the care I can.” He added, ‘Your brother has wrote for you, to come to Jamaica; but if you go, it will hurt your soul. You have also thoughts of altering your condition; but if you marry him you think of, it will draw you from God, and you will neither be happy here nor hereafter. Keep close to God, and go on in the way wherein you have been brought up.’ I asked, “How do you spend your time?’ He answered, “In songs of praise. But of this you will know more by and by; for where I am, you will surely be. * Who can account for this ?