Wesley Corpus

“From the time she joined the society, she was a true lover of her ministers and her brethren ; not suffering any to speak evil of them, particularly of her ministers: and if her innocent answers did not stop them, she left theircompany. In the beginning of December (ast she was indisposed; and on Saturday, 8, took her room. In the afternoon she broke out, ‘ When shall I see my Jesus? I want to know that he has taken away my sins.’ After a while she cried, ‘He does love me. I know Jesus loves me. My Father! He is my Father and my God.’ “Yet on the Wednesday following she was in deep distress. ‘I found her,’ says one who then visited her, ‘crying out, “O that I was washed in the blood of the Lamb! Pray for me, that I may know my sins are forgiven.” I prayed with her several times, and stayed all night. She did not sleep at all; her pain of body, as well as mind, being exceeding great. She was almost continually in prayer, crying for mercy, till I went away, about eight in the morning. ** About nine in the evening 1 came again. She was still in violent pain, but did not seem to regard this in comparison of her soul. Her continual ery was, “I do not know Christ: I want an interest in Christ: O that I might know him! O that he would forgive my sins; that he would wash me whiter than-snow!” She had never any ease but while we were at prayer, with which she was never satisfied ; but held me, and would not let me rise from my knees, sometimes for an hour together. I was praying with her about twelve o’clock, when she called out, “ Help me to praise the Lord. I feel my sins are forgiven. 1am washed, and made whiter than snow.” She spent the remainder of the night in praise and prayer. About eight in the morning I went home. Pe Ad oe % ae ¥ 516 REV. J. WESLEY’S JOURNAL. [Jane, 1751.