Wesley Corpus

“J find a great difference between what I once felt in myself, and what | feel now. Then I felt nothing but love, and peace, and joy in believing. Now, though I feel a measure of all these heavenly tempers, yet I feel other tempers also; and if I do not continually fight against them, Iam overcome. The devil tempted me then; but it was as nothing; for he seemed to have no part in me. But now I find an enemy in my own bosom, that is ready to betray me every moment. I believe, did I not yet expect a full deliverance from sin, I should grow faint and weary. But the hope of that gives me fresh courage to go on. For I cannot doubt but I shall be a living witness of it. O may the Lord hasten the time! Dear sir, do not fail to pray, that he may fulfil that great work in “ Your daughter i in Christ, ‘ “ Sept. 21, 1745. “Dear Sir, -I will let you know, as near as I can, how the Lord hath dealt with me ever since I can remember. When I was five or six years -oid, I had many serious thoughts about death and judgment. I wanted to be good, but I knew not how. I was often in great trouble for fear I should die and go to hell. If at any time I[ told a lie, I was like one in hell. I was afraid to be one moment by myself, for I thought the devil would come and tear me in pieces; and so I continued till I was about eight years old. Then I received a measure of the love of God. I loved Jesus Christ, so that I thought I could suffer any thing for his sake. I could not bear te be with other children; but when I was from school, I would go by myself, and pray, and read: I prayed much for death, for T wanted to be with Christ. And I thought if I lived, I should sin and yffend God.