Wesley Corpus

18. “ But is not any sort of fear,” continued the tempter, “ a proot that thou dost not believe?” I desired my Master to answer for me ; and opened his Book upon those words of St. Paul, “ Without were fightings, within were fears.” Then, inferred I, well may fears be within me ; but I must go on, and tread them under my feet. Fri. 26.--My soul continued in peace, but yet in heaviness because of manifold temptations. I asked Mr. Telchig, the Moravian, what to do. He said, “ You must not fight with them, as you did before, but flee from them the moment they appear, and take shelter in the wounds of Jesus.” The same I learned also from the afternoon anthem, which was, “ My soul truly waiteth still upon God: for of him cometh my salvation ; he verily is my strength and my salvation, he is my defence, so that I shall not greatly fall. O put your trust in him always, ye neople ; pour out your hearts before him ; for God is our hope.” Sat. 2'7.--Believing one reason of my want of joy was want of time for prayer, I resolved to do no business till I went to church in the morning, but to continue pouring out my heart before him. And this day my spirit was enlarged; so thut though I was now also assaulted by many temptations, I was more than conqueror, gaining more power thereby to trust and to rejoice in God my Saviour. Sun. 28.--I waked in peace, but not in joy. In the same even, quiet state I was till the evening, when I was roughly attacked in a large company as an enthusiast, a seducer, and a setter-forth of new doctrines. By the blessing of Ged, I was not moved to anger, but after a calm and short reply went away ; though not with so tender a concern as was due to those who were seeking death in the error of their life.