Journal Vol1 3
| Author | John Wesley |
|---|---|
| Type | journal |
| Year | None |
| Passage ID | jw-journal-vol1-3-1022 |
| Words | 390 |
In April, 1746, CarHerine Wuitaker went to Halifax, to hear Johu
Nelson. She was before convinced of the truth by reading, and from
that time grew more and more serious. The next year John H---- called
at our house. As he was going, he turned back, took her by the hand,
and said, “ You must believe, whether you can or no.” As soon as he
was gone, she began crying to God, and ceased not, till she knew she
did believe in Christ. She never afterward lost the sense of his love; nor
could she rest, if she found the least cloud, till it was wholly removed,
and the clear light shone again upon her soul.
In May, 1750, she removed to Bolton, and soon after appeared to be
consumptive. But she did not spare herself on that account, still r'sing
at five, four, or three in the morning, and continuing to teach her sch( lars,
as usual, till about Christmas, 1751. From that time her bodily strength
failed, though she did not keep her room till March. She was then afraid
lest she should live to be a burden to her relations; but that fear soon
vanished away, and she said, ‘“‘ Now I can leave it all to God. Let me die
sooner or later, it is all one.” But she had still some struggle concerning
her husband, before she was thoroughly willing to give him up.
The next Friday but one before she died, one of her sisters sitting by
her, she began singing,
O happy, happy day,
That calls the exiles home!
She immediately joined with her, and sung on to the end of the hymn.
The Thursday after, she looked round upon us, and said, “O how I love
you all! I am all love. I love every soul God has made.” Her husband
asked, “ Are you happy ?” She said, “O yes:
I cannot fear, I cannot doubt,
I feel the sprinkled blood :
“Sing on, sing on,
Let every soul with me cry out,
Thou art my Lord, my God.”
At breakfast she desired a little cold water; on receiving which, she
‘coked up and said, “In a little while, I shall drink new wine in the
kingdom of my Father.” About ten o’clock she broke out,--
My God is reconciled,