Journal Vol1 3
| Author | John Wesley |
|---|---|
| Type | journal |
| Year | None |
| Passage ID | jw-journal-vol1-3-086 |
| Words | 351 |
I think, verily, if the Gospel be true, I am safe: for I not omy
have given, and do give, all my goods to feed the poor; I not only
give my body to be burned, drowned, or whatever God shall appoint
for me; but I follow after charity, (though not as I ought, yet as I
can,) f haply I may attain it. I now believe the Gospel is true. ‘I
show my faith by my works,’ by staking my all upon it. I would do
so again and again a thousand times, if the choice were still to make.
Whoever sees me, sees I would be a Christian. Therefore ‘are my
ways not like other men’s ways.’ Therefore I have been, I am, I am
content to be, ‘a by-word, a proverb of reproach.’ But in a storm I
think, ‘ What if the Gospel be not true? Then thou art of all men
most foolish. For what hast thou given thy goods, thy ease, thy friends,
thy reputation, thy country, thy life? For what art thou wandering
over the face of the earth?--A dream, ‘a cunningly devised fable !” ’
O! who will deliver me from this fear of death? What shall I do?
Where shall I fly from it? Should I fight against it by thinking, or by
not thinking of it? A wise man advised me some time since, ‘ Be still
and go on.’ Perhaps this is best, to look upon it as my cross; when it
comes, to let it humble me, and quicken all my good resolutions, especially that of praying without ceasing; and at other times, to take no
thought about it, but quietly to go on ‘in the work of the Lord.’ ”
We went on with a small, fair wind, till Thursday in the afternoon ;
and then sounding, found a whitish sand at seventy-five fathom: but
having had no observation for several days, the captain began to be
uneasy, fearing we might either get unawares into the Bristol Channel,
or strike in the night on the rocks of Scilly.