Wesley Corpus

So far as you knew me to do amiss in my lifetime, do you take care to do better.” I said, ‘It is a shocking affair to live and die after that manner. He replied, ‘It is no time for reflections now : What is done cannot be undone.’ I said, ‘It must be a great happiness to die in the Lord!’ He said, ‘Hold your tongue!" Hold your tongue! At your peril, never mention such a word before me again!’ I was frighted, and strove to lift up my heart to God. He gave a shriek, and sunk down at three times, with a loud groan at each time. Just as he disappeared, there was a large flash of fire, and I fainted away. “19. Three days after, I went to Durham, and put the affair into Mr. Hugill the Attorney’s hands. The next night, about one, he came in ; but on my taking up the Bible, went away. A month after, he came about eleven. I said, ‘Lord bless me ! What has brought you here again?’ He said, ‘Mr. Hugillt has done nothing but write one letter: You must write or go to Durham again. It may be decided in a few days.” I asked, ‘Why do not you go to my aunts, who keep me out of it?’ He answered, ‘I have no power to go to them: And they cannot bear it. If I could, I would go to them, were it only to warn them; for I doubt, where I am I shall get too many to bear me company. He added, ‘Take care:$ There is mischief laid in Peggy's hands: She will strive to meet you coming from your class. I do not speak to hinder you from going to it, but that you may be cautious. Let some one go with you, and come back with you; though whether you will escape or no, I cannot tell.’ I said, ‘She can do no more * This seems to have been peculiarly intolerable to him, the thought of what he had lost. + So he had observed him narrowly, though unseen. # Is not this like the concern of Dives for his five brethren P § Here, at least, he shows some remains of real affection. Luke xvi. 28. | Her aunt. May, 1768.] JOURNAL. 333 than God will let her.