Wesley Corpus

Rather, is it not an answer to my own ill-judged, though well-intended, prayer? Did I not ask a burden unsuitable to a finite, and capable of being borne only by an infinite, being?” He remained some hours in this situation. Then it came into his mind, ‘If this is a purely natural event, the will of the Lord be done ! But if it be the answer to an improper prayer, God will answer again by removing it.” He cried to the Lord, and was immediately restored to strength both of body and mind. “When we were at Leeds, in the year 1784, I had another proof of the tender sensibility of his heart. O how deeply was he affected concerning the welfare of his brethren | When any little disputes arose between them, his inmost soul groaned under the burden; and, by two or three o’clock in the morning, I was sure to hear him breathing out prayer for the peace and prosperity of Sion. When I observed to him, I was afraid it would hurt his health, and wished him to sleep more, he would answer, “O Polly, the cause of God lies near my heart !” “Toward me his tenderness was exerted in its utmost extent. My soul, my body, my health, my ease and comfort, were his daily study. We had no thought, either past or present, which we purposely concealed from each other. My spiritual advancement was his constant endeavour; and to this he was continually stirring me up, inviting me to walk more closely with God; urging that thought, ‘O my dear, let us pray for dying grace; for we shall not be long here.” His temporal affairs he committed solely to me, though he was always ready to assist me in the smallest matters. “One article more remains to be spoken of, namely, his communion with God. Although he enjoyed this, more or less, at all times and in all places, yet I have frequently heard him observe, that the seasons of his closest communion were always in his own house, or in the church; usually in the latter. It is much to be lamented that we have no account of it from his own pen. It was his constant endeavour to maintain an uninterrupted sense of the presence of God.