Wesley Corpus

I no sooner executed this resolution, than my spirit revived ; so that from this day I had no more of that fearfulness and heaviness, which before almost continually weighed me down. Iam sensible one who thinks the being 2n orco, as they phrase it, an indispensable preparative for being a Christian, would say, I had better have continued in that state ; and that this unseasonable relief was a curse, not a blessing. Nay, but who art thou, O man, who, in favour of a wretched hypothesis, thus blasphemest the good gift of God? Hath not He himself said, “This also is the gift of God, if a man have power to rejoice in his labour??? Yea, God setteth his own seal to his weak endeavours while he thus “ answereth him in the joy of his heart.” Jan. 1738. ] REV. J. WESLEY’S JOURNAL. 55 Tues. 24.--We spoke with two ships, outward bound, from whom we had the welcome news, of our wanting but one hundred and sixty leagues of the Land’s end. My mind was now full of thought; part of which I writ down as follows :-- * T went to America, to convert the Indians ; but.O! who shall convert me ? who, what is he that will deliver me from this evil heart of unbelief? Ihave a fair summer religion. I can talk well; nay, and believe myself, while no danger is near: but let death look me in the face, and my spirit is troubled. Nor can I say, ‘To die is gain!’ _I have a sin of fear, that when I ’ve spun My last thread, I shall perish on the shore!