Wesley Corpus

Sometimes she felt resentment for a short time, of which darkness was the sure consequence; but if at any time she lost the consciousness of pardon, it almost took away her life; nor could she rest satisfied a moment, till she regained the light of his countenance. She always judged it was the privilege of every believer, constantly to ‘walk in the light;’ and that nothing but sin could rob any, who had true faith, of their confidence in a pardoning God. “She was tried from within and without for about five years, yet kept from all known sin. In the year 1761, it pleased God to show her more clearly than ever, under a sermon preached by John Johnson, the absolute necessity of being saved from all sin, and perfected in love. And now her constant cry was, ‘Lord, take full possession of my heart, and reign there without a rival l’ Nor was this at all hindered by her disorders, the gravel and colic, which about this time began to be very violent. “In the year 1762, she believed God did hear her prayer; that her soul was entirely filled with love, and all unholy tempers destroyed; and for several months she rejoiced evermore, prayed without ceasing, and in everything gave thanks. Her happiness had no intermission, day or night; yea, and increased while her disorder increased exceedingly. “But in the beginning of the year 1763, when some unkind things were whispered about concerning her, she gave way to the temptation, and felt again a degree of anger in her heart. This soon occasioned a doubt, whether she was not deceived before in thinking she was saved from sin. But she said, ‘Whether I was or no, I am sure I may be; and I am" determined now to seek it from the Lord.” “From this time her disorders gradually increased. When ever I was in town,” I visited her from time to time, and always found her, whatever her pains were, resigned to the will of God; having a clear sense of his favour, and a strong confidence that he would finish his work in her soul. * Mr. Johnson. July, 1767.] JOURNAL. 291 “So soon as I came to town, January, 1767, she sent for me.